Lord of the Ringless

That "In Love" Feeling

 I just exchanged emails with a woman about infastuation, dating and the defining period of three months.  Usually 3 months is when the infatuation wears off and the real person is pleased to stand up. In couples who continue on to marry and have good marriages the core values and virtues remain strong and even improve, deepening respect.

 

 In others, that short amount of time begins to reveal a glossy paint job that's peeling. The wood underneath may be rotten. Or,realistically and commonly, the best efforts to master life long foibles can’t bear up much longer than a couple months. For example showing up on time (speaking of myself) erodes into the more characteristic trait—“always late.” People realize they are not the best match after all, given the real enchiladas.

 

It is not the elated feelings of infastuation, nor the deeper but fleeing feeling of being in love but the love from respect (quality person) that helps carry through to marriage. Even within the marriage, it helps carry them through the alternating fleeting feelings of love. Gary Chapman quotes an expert in his book, Five Loves and states the “In love” feeling generally lasts no more than two years. I heard Dr Dobson say it can begin ebbing even before a year of their meeting together.

 

I once read, “Love is a steady intent of our will toward another’s lasting good.” That is the definition that will carry a marriage through the years—not the feeling of being, “in love.” And that is agape love. God’s love to direct His best actions for our best good toward us irregardless of what space we are in.  That is the love all the couples I know have said is the glue that held their marriage boat together through the seasonal storms without shipwrecking.

 

Once I spoke with a woman married eighteen years who described a scene in her kitchen—her husband dropped a crystal glass from their wedding. When she expressed distress and made a sentimental comment, somehow a tete a tete began. It culminated when he said, “I was never ‘in love’ with you when we married.”  She was shocked and hurt, but prayed and determined to love him through her love for Jesus anyway.  A couple years later they had some loving moments. She revisited the hurt she had felt from that night. He denied what he said. “I’ve always loved you.”  Such is our human condition of “feelings.”

 

So I think of Fiddler on the Roof when Tevyah sings to his wife, “Do you love me?”

She answers, “for twenty five years I’ve washed his clothes, fed him meals, slept with him…if that’s not love what is?”  Old fashioned, practical love that does.

 

In an age that dotes on romance and starry starry eyes, it’s good to remember  love is from God. The best we can do in this life is love each other as He loves us and loved us through the love He gives us. In His fountain, not our own dwindling brook. The love of 1 Corinthians 13, that bears and believes all things. That does not keep a record of wrongs.  

 

The love he showed by sending His Son was not a feel good demonstration. It was a determined effort and decision to love a people who were at the time uncaring. But love won out and what a difference our response is today than when we first met Him. So our human marriages can reflect that divine love… and some do!

 

Mel Gibson loses Passion

 

By now we have all heard Mel Gibson’s marriage of 28 years and 6 children is ending. His wife has filed for divorce and since there was no pre-nup 900 million will be split. The reason for the headlines on all the celeb mags this week?

Mel is openly cavorting with other women. Nothing will destroy a marriage like adultery. Two people place their trust in one another to build a life under God. To share their hearts (really scary) and finances (scary)  often to raise children (hardest) and commit to build a future together  trusting they have a foundation that will stand the tests of life and time.

That’s why they make a commitment. It takes a commitment to each other and to God, His love and power and forgiveness.

Gibson and his wife are Catholic. As a young girl I remember learning about the Holy Sacrament of marriage. Lived out with the desire to respect and honor  each other, knowing that respects and honors God—serving each other as Jesus demonstrated by washing the disciples feet. When we see marriages like this it is a rare jewel.  All easier said than done—and only done by complete dependence on God to fill in the gaps we humans surely have with all our good intentions. I love the picture of a 3 fold cord of Ecclesiastes. 2 strands alone are weak, that extra one makes it strong. Thus, "We can do all things through Christ who strenghtens me." Philippians 4:7

But adultery is absolute destruction to a marriage. Have you ever stepped in a plane with a pilot who lands the craft badly? Trust flies out the window.  I remember such a event in a smaller plane on a Greek island. Who would choose to step back in the plane when your life is at stake?

This is why Bruce Springsteen recently accused of cavorting with a gal at his gym has verbalized denial and posted his website vehemently repudiating the allegations. He is trying to protect his marriage and his wife. He knows the work of sabatoge and suggestion. He knows the terrible consequence of adultery.

 Mel Gibson denies nothing. He is openly seen with other women and says nothing. There is nothing to protect. Nothing to repair. He is not protecting his honor, nor his wife from the pain of publicity. Has he given up? It seems like it.

Most adults realize Adultery rips hearts apart. It is difficult to function with a bleeding heart. How difficult for the offended, abandoned partner to forgive and pick up as if their life were not at stake. From the friends I have walked through this process with, it is 100% accountability at all times until trust has been semi-rebuilt again. If a relationship is a house it’s like blasting the house into smithereens so you can get back down to the foundation and start pouring all over again.

Is his marriage irrepairable? Never. But rebuilding on an old foundation is harder than building on a new foundation. It takes more work and more energy. But God can do that if both people look to Him first for all they will need.

Mel produced The Passion which I just watched again a week ago. Has he read Jesus’ words in John  9:34-36 . Does he know he is a slave to sin? Does he understand the journey of the cross he graphically detailed and directed of Jesus road to Calvary was for his sin too?  Even now, Jesus would forgive and empower him and  free him to Love and live a life that truly reflects the honor of a Christian for His Lord and his wife, his children and community. 

 If the Son makes you free you are free indeed, Jesus

John 8:36.

Marriage Lives with Memories

I met a widow tugging two small white bichon’s  tonite on my dog walk. We watched our dogs show interest in each other and started dog talk.

“She is 1 year and he is 13 years old,” she pointed to each. “This is my family now. My husband died of cancer last year,” she stated pensively followed by a gleam.

“I’m sorry,” I stated. 

She smiled and emphasized, “We had a wonderful marriage. I feel like I won the lottery. I miss my husband but I feel like I have something to miss many never even come close to experiencing.” 

“Wow,” I said agreeing with her.  “You are the second widow  this year to tell me that. A wonderful marriage is such a rare gift. Very few people in life have had it.”

“Yes,” she chuckled. “Even when he had cancer I whisked by his bed one day cleaning house. He said,” Wow.”  I stopped.“What?” He said, “I love you so much.”  Her face glowed as she turned the pages of her mind. 

“He slept on his right side and I slept on my left, so we were back to back. But we would each extend our upper arms behind us and fall asleep holding hands…every night.” She smiled.

“One day he was at the apartment rentals and a gal flipped her top up. He ignored it and she followed him and did it again. “What do you think?” she coyly grinned. “My wife’s are better” he laughed.  “After she offered services, he just sat her down and lectured her on the threat of HIV and STD’s etc. – IF  you knew my husband you would know that’s just like him. He had integrity and he really cared for people. All seven of his brothers are the same from a family of 11. All are committed to their wives; all have good marriages. Men of honor. Stable.”

“My husband worked hard at two jobs. He was very busy. But every Friday night for twenty-five years we had our date night. We both looked so forward to it. Sometimes we went on a walk, or watched a movie or went out to a fancy dinner. We never missed. He was so happy, ‘What are we going to do tonight?’”

 “He watched over our only daughter so lovingly and she adored him. He always told her not to run on the bike trail alone because it wasn’t safe. ‘Walk on the sidewalks,’ he advised. Then a few months before he died, a boy was driving and texting at the same time my daughter was walking with her headphones and listening to music. He rounded the curve and hit her from behind. She was killed instantly.”

“I am so sorry,” I stated searching her eyes. “She didn’t suffer.”

“No, he hit her from behind, not in front. She never saw anything.” Her voice lilted up. I felt relieved also.

“They’re in heaven together,” I wondered aloud.

She nodded. The dogs stood still and quiet, hers and mine.

“I always feel like maybe God took her first because she couldn’t have borne to see her Dad die. They were so close.”  Her words were quiet and penetrating.

Somehow, it made sense. In some inexplainable way.

We parted. I thanked her and told her I might blog about her husband. Their’s was a gift to share with the world . A celebration of family. True love, expressed the way God intended, between a husband and wife.

 

 

Reunion Sites - Danger to Marriages?

Trish Goyer author of Generation Next Marriage, shared over the airwaves last week in a frank discussion, the day an email popped up on her computer at work and how it affected her marriage.

This is a time when email sites are devoted to hooking you up to people in your past--there are all kinds of reunion sites, the radio host stated.

Trish met her husband after she became a Christian and left a promiscuous lifestyle. "I was seventeen and pregnant on our first date." She knew her husband to be was special by the end of that date. They talked and talked and discussed God and their dreams. She knew she could have a real relationship with him and soon after they married and had children. 

Then one day I headed for work in my usual manner. Suddenly an email from the first person I'd been intimate with as a teenager popped up at work. "Seeing the email opened a flood of emotions. I emailed back which opened conversation. He had named his daughter after me. Two days later we talked. I felt guilty and emotional. I called my girl friends and told a few what was happening so I could get a prayer covering.

I sat down and told my husband, "I have an old boyfriend emailing me-my emotions are out of control; I need prayer. I have emotions and I don't want them there." 

 MY husband was surprised. We are very happy and have beautiful children. He prayed with me that our relationship would stay strong. Tears streamed down his face. I felt so bad and I loved him so much. The next day I emailed my friend and cut off all communication. It took awhile for my husband to find healing. the next few months into the next year were a growing time in our marriage.

Trish shared with the listening audience how she dealt with her emotions during that healing time.

One night I went to Jesus and pictured Him with me as I remembered and asked forgiveness for every person I had been with before I met my husband. "Jesus will you forgive me for this... Jesus will you forgive me when I turned to _______instead of to you for love."

"We need Him to dig into our hearts and take what needs to be healed...."

50 Years After the Rings

Today I had the privilege of attending a precious and rare occasion—a 50^th wedding anniversary. The betrothal date, December 26^th, 1958.

 

 

The celebrated couple Charles and Beth Self, met over fifty years ago in Berkeley at the First Presbyterian church. Delightfully, they recalled ...the proposal.

 

“I wanted to propose by singing a song. The church pianist offered to accompany me –but I refused,” Charles eyes sparkled.  “I sang accapella on my knees in front of sixty – seventy people.”

 

 

“He sang , ‘Let me call you sweetheart,” Beth, the assiduous bride-of-his youth, smiled winsomely.

 

 

“The pianist said I should have taken him up on his offer,” he grinned as we both joined him.

 

 

"So, what do you attribute the success of your last fifty years?" I later asked each better-half out of earshot from each other.  Charles answered quickly seated on the couch with a view of endless green lawn from the living room with a country-view.

 

 

“The grace of God,” Charles quietly stated in a deliberate and serious tone. “The love of God brings you together and the grace of God keeps you together….”

 

 

Beth answered from the kitchen, where she and her daughter were busily packing the leftover baked dessert breads, cookies and finger foods from their celebration to take down to the homeless. ( Beth and Charles have helped many people over the decades; they also raised foster children and developmentally delayed young adults, besides their own two.)

 

 

“We kept our eyes on Jesus.” Beth stated solidly as she continued packing. “That is the answer. If you fix your eyes on Jesus, you don’t fuss with others. It doesn’t matter what others think or do…only Jesus. Then whatever problem comes along He gives grace and forgiveness. How can you be unforgiving when you’re always aware how much He has done for you already?”

 

 

The ins and outs of loving each other and forgiving each other are important ingredients to living together fifty Christmases. And always God showers grace on any couple, just like Beth and Charles, willing to open His marriage manual, the Bible, and learn why God came to earth 2000 Christmas’s ago…to demonstrate love in action to all people married and single.

 

 

Charles and Beth’s Favorite Verses,   I John 4:15-16 

“If anyone acknowledges that Jesus is the Son of God, God lives in Him and He in God. And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love.”

The Wedding Month and Seasoned Brides

Okay, so it is the time for June Brides. I have attended two weddings and one more to come. The rush is on. Four couples in one month, 7 over 50 first timers! It's another tidal wave season, like it has been so many other times in my life when the waves have come in to the shores of singleness capturing a boatfull of eligibles and sweeping them away to marriage.

Yet in the June issue of The Week, reported a recent Gallup Poll revealed 70% of Americans now consider divorce to be morally acceptable, the highest number ever to hold this view. In 2001 only 59% of Americans considered divorce acceptable.

MOre and more people are quicker to divorce once the marriage bedrock seems to be crumbling. It is easier mentally and socially to head out before perceived damage is done now than ever before. Has inspection and intervention occurred? The termite man aside from God, may be marriage counselors or those who can mediate and stabilize their eroded confidence in each other and their vows of better or worse and begin rebuilding. I have seen too often, a partner leave to find him or herself, casting off their vows as if they never saw that movie they starred in.

So I celebrate the couple who just shot out an email an hour ago, "We made it to twenty and we'll be out of town celebrating." I replied "Yay and congratulations." It is more and more an infrequent occurence. I woke up to the windy edges of a hurricane in Japan once. I remember standing under the the frame of a doorway wondering if the whole paper house would blow down.

Being a single who desires marriage and commitment, it is wonderful to rub shoulders with those who have born the hurricanes that attack every family and live through it to talk about. All those who mark any length of time said they couldn't have survived without God and their vows. Simply put, simple truths were enough to keep them standing still. Loving God, loving eachother sacrificially.

So it was fun to attend a wedding yesterday and speak to a seasoned bride.

"You know the song "You've only Just Begun" that they play at weddings? It's a really good song, very true. When we were married 22 years ago, we didn't realize how much more we could love each other, how much deeper our love could grow by now. Even with all the trials and disappointments of life..it's really rich- our love is strong."

Til Death Do Us Part

Once I spoke with a single man who told me: “I’d rather be married two years to someone I love than twenty years in a loveless marriage.” How true, as evidenced by the moving words of Hudson Taylor, the famous missionary to China, last words to his dying wife only 33 years young. (The excerpt was in my journal from his biography.)

Mr. Taylor knelt by her bedside and committed her to the Lord…Thanking Him for having given her to him for 12 ½ years of perfect happiness together; thanking Him for taking her into the joy of His presence and dedicating himself anew to God’s service.

His letter to his mom: “From my inmost soul I delight in the knowledge that God does permit all things and causes all things to work together for good to those who love Him. He and He only knew what my dear wife was to me. He knew how the light of my eyes and joy of my heart were in her. On the last day of her life our hearts were mutually delighted by the never old story of each other’s love…

When I think of my loss, my heart, nigh to breaking, rises in thankfulness to Him who has spared her such sorrow and made her unspeakably happy."

A Faith like this and a love like this needs to be honored. And so we do. Today they are in heaven together awaiting that Grand day when all true loves will be reunited at the Marriage Feast of the Lamb.

The Happy Place

4 nurses, all talking over breakfast. One spoke of a friend recently married.
“So how’s she doing?”
The gal frowned and shook her head. Married less than a year her newlywed friend is wondering if
this is normal. She's not happy. She feels it’s harder than she thought –being married.

“So much about our world makes it harder for the young generations to hang in there,” one of the twenty plus married nurse’s sighed.
“No wonder the young people are having such a hard time! They want marriage to be always up, always at the happy place.”
Everything in our world is about instant results and we can’t stand to wait for things. We want instant food. We want instant computer access. Wait for dial-up?” Ridiculous.

Why talk on the phone if we can instant text message? Just last week a friend told me it’s much better since you spare phone time. (She has a point but the human connection deserves a little credit for the sake of possibly even touching bases with a real voice, a look, a sigh, a handshake or a hug. Boundaries aren’t so hard we can’t say, “Got a minute? I’d like to tell you something, ask you something, etc.”)

Television shows give the appearance that in 30 minutes anything can happen and then resolve: in just thirty minutes. These shows are adopted as real life scenarios for many youth. The romantic bend and incessant focus on sensuality which is a small portion of a relationship and your lives together makes for disillusionment also.

“Then it’s the day to day. Marriage is living with a friend,” another committed mom/wife said.
“People forget being married has a lot of plateaus, like when you look at each other and say, “what do you want for dinner tonite.” She rolled her eyes. “There’s the laundry, grocery shopping, bills, and the kids. Sometimes the kids are acting up and they have stuff going on; if they’re not driving yet, you’re constantly figuring out transportation. Some of those things are not a lot of fun. It’s work.”

It’s worth it, but it’s work. It's obvious she does not expect... by any means… always a happy time.

So what was that old serial we used to watch with Ron the redhead Opie? Happy Times?

Ecclesiastes 3:1,4 “There is a time for everything and a season for every activity under heaven. A time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance…”

met and married in eleven days

So yesterday our pastor shared a tall fishing story...that was true. It really was a big catch.

A new man walked into our group recently and was snatched up instantly

"I know God brought us together" the lucky fisherwoman shared with our Pastor, bearing her ringed hand two weeks later. "I've been praying for this man all of my life."
"How long have you known him?" our pastor inquired thinking maybe she knew him before he attended our group.
"11 days," she answered, "but we've spent alot of time together. We'd really like your blessings on our marriage."

He refused to give them his blessings.

Instead he said, "My guess is that in 90 days you'll be back for a different reason. The same passion and emotional intensity that put you here so quickly is the same stuff that will tear you down.
The Bible says to seek wisdom. Not be stupid and ask for blessings."

Wow. We were silent. Maybe it's okay if we haven't had a bite in awhile. Fishing can be serious business, especially if you catch one too quick! After the rush of the catch... comes the gutting. And that is for all who know, downright messy.